This old identity that still tries to objectify itself into my present life. The fading memories that intuitively come and go.
I don’t understand why, I just want to tell my throw away soul to stop trying to force its’ way into my life.
I am done living a lie continuing to lead and pursue that old life.
Wasted and broken dreams, stitches all up the seams of her torn dress. Smeared mascara from yesterdays tears. Bottles and empty bags of dope. The last hit of a dewby.
No more crying time to grow up and be a big girl and face my fears.
Wide awake, faucet water tastes of old, dirty sewage pipes and the moonlight coming through the drapes of the window shine on my tired and weary eyes.
I am not surprised you left me and ran away from me as, soon as I opened my mouth.
Just a broken and lonely princess you filled her up with your internal fear and doubts.
Now left to detach and dissociate myself from the toxic energy.
I am done allowing emotional vampires like you in to suck me to dry and wear me thin.
Goodbye poison. Goodbye weakling. Goodbye to all my sins.